Family: Choking Me Internally

You know it's tough just dealing with the recent Dual Diagnosis I received and am just about to fucking Explode if my Mom doesn't stop trying to inflict Her negative controlling rules.Family is hard enough from a distance and just a few times a year let alone when they open their hoarding unorganized home to you and they act like they are the fucking Risen Savior themselves and because they allow you back in their Chicken Coop you are supposed to Bow Down and give them praises.Fucking Please.I don't have to listen to this shit.Then on the first snow of this cold ass year my "ever so loving" Christian mother tells me to get out. Needless to say I am really not shocked.She is so fucking resentful that it's absolutely poisoning to be around here in this home and living couch to couch is easier.She claimed "I will regret it" Well, what's my part? I am praying for release from my new Hell.Being back around this is a trigger.Her poisoning words inflict and I am not willing to tolerate it another Day longer.Im done.God is working with me and He is in Charge.My Mom can go check with him about herself because I have to worry about Me and my Girls.Wish me luck cause the cards are stacked and much of the time it's an Evil trap up.This time it's just time I carry on.Tuesdays Gone- Skynyrd.

Prayer : Gratitude

1.Im grateful to be Alive                                                                     2.Im grateful to be Healthy
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Wishing I Was Not the One Whom Others Depend On

Hey! Bring me that Pick Axe and lets get to WORK!Its only been my whole life i have dodged general labor as much as i could because doing music or some type of creative project has always been more luctrative and was what got all the members in``````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````THE FUCKING DOOR.Gratitude to GOD is what I was missing!All Glory goes to My God FIRST!!!
    Thank you God for Waking me up another Day today.Life is a Gift that i am Grateful for.Thank you God for My Family and my RECOVERY!!!IM graTe FULL so,so,so,so,so,so,so,so,soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,so,so,so GRATEFUL To BreAth!!!Another day has begun!En Los Manos Del Dios.

#recovery, #gratitude, #klloyd, #dirtkicker,